The grass will grow between us.
The sun and moon
have ended their shooting war
in favor of
disinformation and disarray.
The grass will grow between us.
The winters grow shorter
the spring more like summer
and always
the future less and less
like a sea of possibility
and more like a drowning pool
a scrying place
television
for an executioner.
The grass will grow between us.
You and I are a million missed chances
the back of your neck
as seen from above
and hovering over a keyboard,
somebody else's family,
decades gone by or going
all of these just out of reach
and thrilling
remain tenebrous
upon consideration.
The grass will grow between us.
Cool logic,
cooling blood,
the yoke of age
and one day silence
save for children playing
where the grass will grow between us.

Your heart bursts with birds and candlelight
and that murder goes on forever
a sea of feathers, a flock of wishes
what is scraped from the bottom of the well
has aged like fine wine
has hardened like your arteries
is weirdly perfect and terminal.
Your heart bursts with birds and
songs gone unheard and
fading from memory
feels like dreaming in reverse --
you watch all the colors wash away.
You watch the sun rise up
to swallow the stars.
You watch for signs pointing to tomorrow
and becoming your own lighthouse
cast a wide arm
sweep aside the sailors
try to pull her in again.
Sailors, astronomers, kings
have all wished
for a swelling sea of birds.

Five years and
five years on it's all
just hand after hand
full of restlessness.
Signals slide like
subway cars
along my bones and
take their toll,
all years just a ridership
bound for nowhere
and nothing
and null.
If I cannot conjure you by name
if I cannot call you from the shadows
if I cannot be heard
above the grinding, sparking rails
then I will find some way
to give your song to the starlight instead.
One day when you hear it
subliminal beneath the loudspeaker buzz
you will slide your hand into mine
and say goodbye to saying goodbye.
We did not arrive here together
but somehow, by accident,
we shall so depart.

All our heart shaped boxes
piled by the curb
rain sodden and wrecked,
all these years of 
baggage,
caked with grime
but bearing sprouts
between corrugation and chaos
are beautiful.
What you never say to me
is as beautiful
as what your silence sings.
There is no right answer,
I know,
but let's pretend there is
and let's set down at the curb
what burdens we've carried
and rest
in each other's arms
until the sprouts and vines
make gardens of our aging
make forests
of our remains.

You could be the edge of night
the card that cuts the dusk
and shuffles back the dawn.
You could be the stereo separation
the bass chasing melodic noise
the ritual urge to tap out lifelines
long leads on dance floors and
rain slick cement.
You could be
swaddled in silk and
pale blue ribbon and
in any compromising position
would look
angelic
in the moonlight
enticing
in the sun.

The fine hairs on the back of your neck
like wheat in the wind
waving from Elysium
an old and elusive myth
a song stuck in my throat
for the rest of my life --
worth the world's weight in gold
worth a lifetime of losing out
worth waking up forever again without you.
Sometimes I am drained by dreams of you,
drowned by your passing
and sometimes lifted up
dragged from the shoals
and made monumental
by the glow and the afterglow
of who you were
and what you are now.